in the days when blog talks

i just realised that there are 2 comments in my previous entry ermo. they are sooo timely. esp for today since i am so down.

so down that i wish i can chill but it seems so hard to chill. why? maybe no more fongseng and level 6 corner to chill and bitch about it. sigh..

zyy pointed out something that is right. that i am spiteful at times. i was wrong that we can be occasionally spiteful and people will give you the leeway and let you be and forgive you for being 'have a bad day'. want to be good guy. it should be all the way.

i was quite unable to reconcile. how come sometimes, i am always the one that is in the wrong. is it reallie the louder is the more correct guy? i guess it's wrong too. the one with demand is at the losing end.

if i quarrel with the shop auntie and bargain, i will lose out eventaully if i reallie want to buy the thing.
if i am spiteful and ignore the world, i will lose out,.. cos i know. and i cannot deny. i need the world more than the world needs me.

shux. i am at the losing end.

what can be worse will be when the shop auntie dun give a damn about my business, despite being such a nice customer for so damn long. sigh