ktv

ktv with shuzhan lynette and angela..

i think song of the day is

爱我的人和我爱的人 裘海正 

.. =)

still have.. erm..

他来听我的演唱会。 good song..

"在乎的人始终不对"

my wall paper on my desktop now

thank you zyy for such a nice picture.. haha.. =)

beautiful pictures from china west

it's half year into my one year in shanghai. and many of us are taking a mid year break.. i guess we are all a little tired from work and everything. also, many couples are taking the chance to travel and tmm before they are going to be physically separated when one of the two return to singapore.
me? i dint go back to singapore like zyy, elim and shirleen and karmeng and bryan and lijuan and hansheng and maybe shuzhan and lynette.

but i still need a break.. so here i am going to one of the most exotic place i can think of. it cost me a bomb but i know i need the break and i wun have the chance to travel ever again, at least not as a student once i go back to singapore.

it's a beautiful place. i will let the pictures do the talking. will talk more bout the trip and place next time. for now, it's a thankful heart to God for companion, safety, and provisions of money. let's hope i will move on to be more hardwork in work and everything else. time to buck up and do more in Shanghai.

hairspray

watched hairspray in shanghai. it's gonna be my last concert / show. in fact, it's my first musical. i have always wanted to watch musical but dun the chance and money. thank God for the chance in shanghai.

in the days when blog talks

i just realised that there are 2 comments in my previous entry ermo. they are sooo timely. esp for today since i am so down.

so down that i wish i can chill but it seems so hard to chill. why? maybe no more fongseng and level 6 corner to chill and bitch about it. sigh..

zyy pointed out something that is right. that i am spiteful at times. i was wrong that we can be occasionally spiteful and people will give you the leeway and let you be and forgive you for being 'have a bad day'. want to be good guy. it should be all the way.

i was quite unable to reconcile. how come sometimes, i am always the one that is in the wrong. is it reallie the louder is the more correct guy? i guess it's wrong too. the one with demand is at the losing end.

if i quarrel with the shop auntie and bargain, i will lose out eventaully if i reallie want to buy the thing.
if i am spiteful and ignore the world, i will lose out,.. cos i know. and i cannot deny. i need the world more than the world needs me.

shux. i am at the losing end.

what can be worse will be when the shop auntie dun give a damn about my business, despite being such a nice customer for so damn long. sigh

brat

　　至于《天龙八部》，很遗憾，那个人人讨厌的阿紫仍然健在，问金庸，他笑得很慈悲："世上真的有这种讨厌的小姑娘，小时候环境不好，后来又爱上姐夫，令她任性反叛，其实身不由己，也是个很可怜的人。"

it's true that there are sad cases around. 任性反叛，其实身不由己，也是个很可怜的人。but, will we give sympathy? often not. so work harder and not to be a brat, not even occasionally.

thoughts

talking to amos makes me feel what is it like talking to myself. he's an emo kid now.

and i do feel ashamed that i am not contented with my lot in life. quoting someone when i say i wish i will have a grad trip.
"u are already in shanghai and NOC.. "
"you know how many people want to go NOC but cannot?"

when i tot it's bleak for my future career. another one says
"you dun know how i wish i am in ur shoes?"
"nus, chem engin"
"it's like how nice"
"i have to take part time degree lor"

so, i feel totally wrong to lament about my wants in life. haha.. but nvm.. i shall still write them down.

it's a constant struggle. to be good and to be bad like the world.

it's a shaping of character in shanghai. i am starting to dun care and stop trying to be that perfect guy.

and those damn ego there are like so nice. they are egoistic about themselves and yet happy.

and, i also realise what is it to like a person again. it's about knowing how wrong the person can be and yet you still want to stay around.

and there are no good guys. all are bad. the difference is, are they at ur side or not. i hate that feeling. but it's getting real.

and who says looks doesnt matter.

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in church, after so long, i finally hear a lot of hyms in church. the feeling is so farmiliar.
"it is well.... (it is well), with my soul (with my soul).. it is well, it is well.. with my soul"

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one good thing that i have gained. someone whom i can talk bout God as well as about the bad things that i have done. not a lot of people i can talk bout the 'holy' and also 'unholy' stuffs.

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and do i have someone special in mind? haha.. i guess so.. i wish i do. but it's so fleeting and i am starting to doubt my fleeting thoughts. but the thoughts stays there consistently. so it's like a permanent fleeting thought. haha.

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"i dun know about tmr.. i just live from day to day.. "